small fluffy white comfort
drinking silver particles suspended in water like it's no thing
huffing rose oil



I received Nathan Carter's "Will you marry me?" single page folded treasure at zine symposium 2008, while in the midst of a golden lovespell with a beautiful towheaded colt with a crack in his head, where the happiness could seep out if it all became too much. These adorable letters, wondrous drawings and entries from a life were held very precious to us, and we mimicked the style for our own zine "you are very deer to me". Nathan has lots of beautiful books available on his etsy. Where this story climaxes; Nathan also makes lushly layered piano and banjo music, under the name Purrbot. Take a listen to this single "Share the good"!


I’m Julius Ceasar, Roman geezer
I fucked them up at the Battle of Alesia
Cleopatra was hot but I got her in the freezer
I got mad Cheops like the Pyramid of Giza
Yeah you know me, I’m Julius C
Who’s down with me, I’m Julius C
You down with me, I’m Julius C
All the ladies love Julius C
Battled with Pompey at Pharsalus
Drank gin and juice from a golden chalice
Don’t need no Trojan on my phallus
If you go to Vegas you can see my palace
Yeah you know me, I’m Julius C
Who’s down with me, I’m Julius C
You down with me, I’m Julius C
All the ladies love Julius C
Et tu, dawg
If I had to chose between the two, I'd rather call myself a slut. My love and preoccupation with sex has lead to "drama" in my relationships only when I felt obligated to monogamy out of social expectations. Once I embraced my more "poly-amorous" or non-traditional feelings about sex the happier my sex life has become. We are all sexual beings and no two beings express their sexuality exactly the same. It only looks alike because of our socialization. Monogamy is not natural. It is a choice. A choice that makes sense if that's your desire. When its more your family, culture, or community's demand then we got problems. Sex addiction is real but -m ethinks the public protest too loudly 'round the topic when their spouse or sexual partners don't adhere to the popular expectations. The more honest we are about how we like our sex the less time, and money, will be spent in clinics and courtrooms.
-- Mo Beasley, Author and Sexuality Educator
I certainly do not view sex addiction as a "disease" that requires 12 steps to cure. Apparently, I fit all the criteria for having a bona fide sex addiction to a T, except for one crucial element: shame. It is this one little horrific emotion that drives millions of so-called sex addicts to spend exponential amounts of money in therapy every year, and just as many to seek support in groups and addiction programs. This shame stems from the fact that many so-called sexual deviants are slapped with the label "sex addict" when there is, in fact, absolutely nothing wrong with liking porn, or anal sex, or spending an evening with a call girl. I don't even think there is anything wrong with using sex to deal with your emotions -- after all, there is some truth to the saying, "let's work it out in bed." Maybe what we need are groups to heal our shame around sex, rather than programs that only serve to reinforce our neuroses.
-- Annie Sprinkle, Ph.D. prostitute/porn star turned sexologist & educat